we'd rather be scared together than alone

Yes, I've been listening to Hunky Dory recently. Visited an old friend after a long time, and she told me that her younger son, a mere toddler, chose this Bowie album from her collection. And he also liked most of it a lot, specially Kooks to which he used to sing and dance whenever he heard it.

I guess I chose this line as a title because I feel that troubles are rising. Not sure if the trouble is with me, more precisely that I don't want to face the trouble. I've just quit my job before my probation ended. Wouldn't think I'd do that but during the training we had in the U.K. there were more and more things pointing into that direction. Unsettled issues, questions nobody wanted to answer, but we badly needed those answers to be able to take over that job from them. I did hope even after we came back that our management would care more seeing there were no progress, but they didn't seem to bother at all. Not even when one of my colleagues from our already undersized team resigned.

Been recommended by a friend, a former colleague for a job, and had the interview last Friday. Another friend forwarded my resume to the company she's working for. So fingers crossed and good luck. Could also go back to the Employment Center as I'm still entitled for some support while I'm looking for jobs. And I do, searching the net, answering job ads, looking at companies' web sites for openings. At the same time, I'm not sure at all where I'm going. I know it's all for making a living, but it feels more and more useless on the long term and it's undermining my soul ruthlessly. It might be aging, too, that makes it feel worse than before, but I just know it's not me keeping office hours. But then I never had the time and the chance (money) to study what I like, writing, drawing, music. So how can it ever change when I barely have enough salary for living even when I do have a job.