Life's A Gas

Why does it still make me feel uncomfortable to fart while using public transportation? It doesn't have any bad effects on human health like smoking that they had to legally stop even in the stops. Is it then because I don't like to play around with it, instead just let it go, and then it comes out loud. But then they talk so much and also quite loud on the trams, trains, buses and it usually doesn't make more sense than that sound coming from another hole.
Also they push a button recently on the tram I have to take to tell us stories of events from half a century ago which some folks decided a few years ago were revolutionary. I don't agree with them as those back then doing these 'revolutionary' things wanted to kill my Grandfather and his whole family, because he literally believed in communism so he helped everyone in that goddamn little village, even when his eleven kids needed food and clothes just the same. And then those people he helped the best he could turned him on the hands of these 'revolutionary' men. But the 'evil' Sowiet soldiers appeared just in time, so amongst others my Mom didn't have to die because of human greed, lies and so on.
But then again, why on sweet fucking earth do I have to listen to such revolting lies and also pay for taking the public transport. I didn't ask for being treated with lies there, I can listen to them on the news if I please.
Finally the noise made by most of these trains going under- and over ground would cover any noise I can make. Most of all their noise, in best case scenario, would mean we're making progress, and getting to our destination, unlike in some cases as it happened lately when the noise meant fire or other unplanned events along the line. Should they pay me for the chance of such events at all?
Back to why I'm not just taking it easy, and do whatever I feel like doing. Now it might be up to having been brought up in a way that in times passed seemed and worked as the right one, but now it's all useless and make people suffer only. Exactly like when they try to hold it back.

...and tell you of my dreaming

What Brussels really wants from us? Gipsies don't have to sit in the back of the trams, actually even the police here is trained how talk to them not to hurt their minority feelings, whereas they can provoke anyone with their behavior with no consequences at all. At the same time the word Jew is used as an insult more than ever before. And I can't hear Jews saying Gipsy or Goy in the same way ever. But then again it's like self-made machos and strong gals or whoever then can refer to cocksucking faggots as a disgusting group of people. On the other hand you never hear gay folks say 'Oh those pussy-licking squareheads! They've got such big mouths and yet no-one use them even as public toilets... I wonder why' At least I don't hear anyone say such stuff, but I do wish I could finally see some changes in a world where people are so deeply pushed into fears created for them from everything which actually someone else doesn't want them to try and find out for themselves if they like it or not. However everything else that makes money for those who already have a lot of it, like drugs, cigs, booze and all the rest goes for all from a very young age, and nobody can (or maybe want??) to do anything against that... and many other things.
These are some of my daydreams while using public transport, socializing again with people at work, and also some of my nightmares... It's the things I'm much more worried about than some new end of the world prophecies. It would be big time for the beginning of something new finally.

For if we don't find the next little dollar I tell you we must die

For some reason I was selected for the job I traveled to be interviewed for on that morning I mentioned in my last log. It doesn't pay as much as the multinational companies, however people don't seem to act so stressed either. Also they seem to pay more attention to how well the newbies learn their job, for instance help me a lot, and make me feel like I'm an idiot if I'm not able to understand something from official descriptions, and don't refuse answering me. All in all they seem to behave much more like human beings than those back in the big chaotic corporate systems. I believe I can consider myself lucky to get this job now.
Well, there's a certain range of jobs available for me with my background, like for all of us, which reflects quite truly how this country got slowly (or maybe rather fast?) destroyed, and thrown to the global chains. And while people here like everywhere else are still chasing dreams of luxury (affordable each to their own status) instead of considering realistic values and chances, and still jumping to politicians' and puppet governments' slogans, we're getting deeper and more inevitably into a situation that thus becomes the harder to get reversed. That's how democracy caught us unprepared.