a day in hell

What is déja vu, actually? Chemical dysfunction of the brain, a glitch in the matrix, or could it be a (maybe infinitely) repeating course of events? Maybe a chance to fix our mistakes, like in purgatorium? Some talk about this in a mysterious way, others try to make it funny. However it always sneaks through that we are deathly serious about if not the thing itself, but the reason why. Then it can be only our human mind trying to give some meaning to everything in this world and out of it.

 
Sometimes I recognize patterns repeating, see a movie about the same thing I've just read the other day, or something happens to me, and soon after I read a very similar story in a book. Surely, you can say it's because I focus on things I'm interested in, so I can easily notice these details. It has to do with personality, of course - some big changes or the lack of them, can make things seem so similar, because we are who we are. Might change, but maybe not enough, to turn the other way, or not to act by habit, but give it a second thought.

Then it's the people we meet in our life. And I don't mean those we talk with like good old acquaintances the very first time we see them. Some people you just feel like they have a certain function in your book. Yes, just like characters from a story you also play a role in. You realize someone similar with about the same mood, acting almost the exact same way, sometimes even looking a bit or a lot like someone else before in your life, who was there. For you? Or you for them? Very likely both. Just like things can happen again and again, who knows what for, to test you? See if you know what to do this time that was missed the last time it could have been done.


Story Sample - Neil Gaiman: Other People

Silver Screen - Monday (The X-files Season 6)
Song Selection - Harold Budd: Butterfly Sunday